Why "Sissy"?

In May of 2018 just one week after my sister's wedding (family pictured from the marvelous event above) - my brother, John Paul Benbow, was involved in a motorcycle accident. He survived one week in the hospital before succumbing to his injuries and passing away. 

For the past decade I have used blogging as an outlet for journeying through life lessons and my spiritual/emotional health and after suffering such a great loss, I have decided to start a new chapter of writing with one goal in mind: REDEMPTION.

Nothing can change or restore back what was taken from our family, but that does not mean that our story can't be used to bring life and hope to many others. This world can be cruel and overwhelming, but Jesus Himself told us to "take heart, for I have overcome the world." So this is where you will find me. With my hands full and my heart overflowing with words that both wrestle with life's big challenges and embrace them. Because I refuse to cower in some hole in the middle of nowhere when there is still so much life to live and so many people to love in the process. 

My brother called all of us girls "sissy", I will miss that the most. But as the weeks turn to months and the months into years, it is my hope that the title he so affectionately gave us will no longer sting but turn into a badge of honor. To share with the world through the heart of that 27 year old goofball who both expressed great love and perfectly timed humor with his family until the very end how together we can all make it through. It won't make it easy or justified, but I'm not looking for that. I'm here to make it count.

XOXO Sissy


“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”  Dr. Elisabeth Kübler-Ross